‘It’s here. My youngest daughters birthday. My second out of four children. Today she turns 16. I can’t believe it. I should be used to it – my eldest daughter was 19 in the summer. Here is my Happy Birthday Sweet Sixteen letter to my gorgeous girl…
When did you get all grown up?
It seems like only yesterday that you were toddling around in your pigtail plaits, clinging on to your precious first doll, Baby Annabelle.
You have always loved your dollys, discovering reborn ones when you were six. I remember having your first one waiting for you as you came out of recovery following having your tonsils removed. You called him Harry, after the Nurses suggestion. You loved him with all your heart. But not as much as you loved me. You were my girl (and still are) I was your whole world. That is the best feeling EVER.
You were the only one of my four who suffered so badly with tonsillitis, never complaining – even though you were taken into hospital twice before you had the operation.
You were my little doll – my blond haired, blue eyed beauty, my little darling.
As you have grown up, you have worried about me, telling me to be careful, to drive carefully, to keep safe. You have been like a little mum to me!
You used to write to me, asking for a little baby brother or sister. For years before the magical day when I told you I was pregnant with Pickle. I will never forget your face. You were absolutely over the moon. You worried about me through the pregnancy – and about Pickle too.
The week he was born you were beside yourself, and were literally sick with excitement and worry. You and the others woke on the Friday morning to a photo of him on your phone – safely here.
From that day to this, you have loved him and cared for him as if he were yours. You stayed with me on his first night at home, waking with me to feed him. You have been my rock, my wingman, my angel here on earth. There is no one I would rather leave Pickle with than you. You know him as well as I do. He adores you. Loves you so much, you are truly a second mum to him.
I know it has been hard for you. We have all been through a lot in the last couple of years, and you have been amazing.
You study hard, work hard, constantly think of others and are the most accepting, non judgemental person I have ever met.
You really are a beautiful soul, a shining light on earth. As you turn sixteen, I think back to your birth, to you being placed on my tummy and looking up into my eyes as we met for the first time, remembering how my heart almost burst with love for you.
I want to say three things to you.
1. I love you. More than you will ever know, more than I can put into words or show you.
2. Thank you. For being there for me – for us. For being by my side. For being my daughter and my absolute rock.
3. Go forward and live your life for you now. We are fine. Be happy, be confident, enjoy your last year of school, and enjoy planning your future. I am always here for you.
I look forward with the greatest pleasure and excitement to see what you will become. Life has great things in store for you, I know that much.
There is so much more I want to say.
Happy Birthday Sweet Sixteen, I love you so very, very much.’