Playgroup Blues


Yesterday morning. 11 June 2015. 10.15am

Mummy says….

I am sat in a cafe on my own, with a little peace and a latte, blogging.

Heaven – I have longed for this moment.

Where’s Pickle? He is in playgroup.

This morning I left him for the first time EVER with anyone other than close family.

first playgroup

first playgroup

My stomach feels a bit funny. I feel a bit sick actually.

I had tears in my eyes as I walked out of the door to his little voice saying ‘you’ll be right back won’t you?’

‘Yes’ I smiled, ‘Mumma will be right back, I am just popping to the car.’

And he turned to play, without a thought.

I know he’s ok, I have had no phone call.

I miss him. His chattering. His questions. His smile.

Oh no, don’t cry in public for goodness sake.

He is my very last baby. And he is now, registered, signed in, paid up to his first setting. The start of his journey into education, and life.

So I am sat – happy to have this little bit of time. Happy to know he is safe and having fun. Happy he is learning to play with others, and share, and make friends.

So why do I feel so sad?

The Little Life of Ickle Pickle


  1. I felt the same when it was Alfie’s first day, he had never been away from me but 2 years later I wonder why I didn’t do it sooner. I love that a can get a couple hours of me time and some one on one time with my younger child. x

  2. ita only natural you feel a little sad. Hugs xxx
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  3. Aww! I bet it was tough but at least you know he is having fun if you didn’t get a phone call 🙂
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  4. I remember that feeling. I still have it when they go to their Dad’s now and again. I’m ok when H is at Nursery as I am busy at work. When both children go to their Dad’s, I work from home so have to keep myself distracted, otherwise that sad feeling is there a lot. I’m sure Ickle Pickle is having a wonderful time. I bet he will give you the biggest hug ever when you pick him up. He’ll be telling you all about his day. It will be easier next Nursery session. Enjoy your ‘me’ time as much as you can x.
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  5. Awww, I really understand this, I was the same when Boo started to go to nursery when I went back to work – I really didn’t like it – though she was 11 months old at the time.(I only lasted back at work 3 month and I stopped work and took Boo out of nursery) We will start nursery again when she is older. It’s such a mixed thing it’s it. I hope you feel a little better each time =)
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  6. It’s only natural lovely to feel that wrench. But he’s a long way off flying the nest yet, and still needs his Mumma. You will both get used to it in time, and will be saying goodbye properly knowing he trusts you will be back after he’s had lots and lots of fun 🙂 x

  7. I think it’s usually the case – Mum is sad and the child loves it! Thanks for hosting #myfavouritepost 🙂
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  8. aaaawww. I get you. Two months ago I put my two kiddos in Preschool and felt so strange for days! And now they are on holiday and I want that time back for me! Oh the irony.

  9. its the down side of being able to stay home with them instead of going to work. makes it that much harder when you finally do ship them off somewhere. We’ve all been there
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  10. Oh hon hope he got on okay and enjoyed himself. Nursery has been a proper mixed bag of emotions for my little family… hugs xx
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  11. This is tough. I remember it well. It is so hard letting go and feeling okay. It is such a roller coaster for quite a while (pre-school) until they find their feet and place. Be super kind to yourself. #myfavouritepost
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  12. Aww, what a lovely post!! He’s such a cutie, and they grow up so incredibly fast, don’t they! x
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  13. Oh, I remember that feeling so well – should be feeling happy but it’s just too quiet and there’s too much missing. Especially poignant with it being your last one. But you will get used to it and the best news is that he was obviously fine. Big hugs 🙂
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  14. Ahh, hope you’re ok – I’m sure it will get easier. My daughter started nursery a couple of months ago and it was really weird at first leaving her for so long, but I love having the time to get things done without worrying about someone else for once. It helped that she loved it straight away and ran off with the other children. I don’t know where she gets her confidence from because it certainly isn’t from me!

    I always think I’d love for it to be a nursery where you can watch them from home, because I always wonder what she got up to and she won’t tell me! But then I think I’d probably spend all day watching it! xx
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  15. I hope you get to enjoy some of your free time when you are used to it #myfavouritepost
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  16. Pickle’s mummy, I feel just the same. I have only the one little boy (also called Pickle! What are the odds! ) (How I would love another) and leaving him at nursery tears my heart a little. I miss my Pickle so much. I know he is happy but it’s only natural. We care about our kids. But, as you also recognise, we do need to let them grow and have time for ourselves too.
    Can you tell me if it gets easier?

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